9 weeks pregnant today.

Says the baby should be about the size of a grape now and that i should be very tired because the placenta is still growing. They say once the placenta is grown the extreme fatigue should decrease and so should the morning sickness.

Maybe i am a step ahead? Maybe i should count my chickens lol.... i don't know, just feeling better and i'm wanting to think positively. I don't know but i think our food big will go up if i keep eating like i am! LOL But at this point it's like... if eating like this helps me feel better then i'm going to keep it up. Makes me wonder if i will gain a lot more weight with this one o.0 I remember my sister saying when she got pregnant the first time she ate whatever she wanted and ended up gaining 60lbs while pregnant she is my size normally (well not she is probably smaller then me after 5 kids, go her!) I don't really want to gain that much weight but i do want to feel good... hmm....

Well these last couple of days I have been feeling pretty good and today i almost felt normal sept for a few short moments but i got over it quickly. I'm so happy! Counting my blessings! And here i thought i was going to have a rough day because last night i woke up sick feeling and couldn't get back to sleep for hours. Kinda was thinking that i might have to start having a snack i can grab in the middle of the night. Almost thought about getting up and eating a slice of the cheese cake i bought the other day hehehe.... but i didn't (might have been smart though)

Yeah yesterday i made a trip into Wally World cause i was needing diapers for Abby. Anabel is pretty much out of diapers now sept for night time, she hasn't gotten the hold of that one and has been peeing her bed even with a diaper on o.0 so not sure what is up with that.

Anywho.... i went to the store hungry which was bad... i ended up leaving with cheese cake, eclairs and rice crispy treats, fruit, frozen dinners (cause i can't seem to cook without feeling sick)... just a ton of stuff i NORMALLY wouldn't dare buying. But i wonder if having all this stuff on hand.... actually eating lunch and snacking all the time is helping me feel better. OH and also i bought chewable prenatal vitamins which i have taken the last two days.... but those can't help you that quick can they? (and they never helped me feel better before)

Well whatever it is that is making me feel better, i sure am grateful! I went out to the store again this morning to buy some material to make something we wanted to do for youth group. When i told Bob i wanted to make it he thought we should wait to do that activity till another week so it would give me time to make them. I agreed because normally i feel like crap and it might take me awhile to actually make them. Well i was inspired today so i went and got the material and came home and started right in on the project.

They are pig based off of the Angry Birds game. So glad i found the pattern for these and they were simple! We are wanting to do a real life version of the game for our youth group. So far i have one totally finished, the base of two more done (just need to hand sew the nose and eyes one) and the other two cut out and pinned. Then i will go on to making the birds. I'm hoping i can get them done for the first youth group meeting but if not, well they will be ready for the second one. Me making them saved us about $30-$40 bucks so it is worth it!

On top of that i spent time in the kitchen and got it pretty clean... there is still stuff to do but still way nicer then it was.... it's been a thorn in my flesh since smells have been getting to me and well kitchens are full of smells especially since my smeller has become one of hound dog! I can't smell every little thing.... sucks!

Now i think i will get up and clean some more. Hubs should be pleased when he gets home :)

Thank you God for helping me feel better these last few days!

Feeling a bit better today. Good thing too cause tonight is the first scrimmage. I hope it doesn't rain while we are there lol.

I have been kinda worried errr stressed about what i have been able to eat this last week. Here at home it's been really hard because what we have here... well it doesn't sound good and then there is the issue of feeling so bad to start with that cooking is hard and that the smells mess with me that i usually can't stand it. I might start cooking but once i get done my stomach has turned so much that i can't eat the food.

I've felt worried about only getting fruit in me but the last few days i was able to get down some peanut butter, it feels like such a big accomplishment.

I wish we had enough disposable money to be able to get me whatever sounds good at that certain meal, sure would help me eat... but i know that gets pricey.

8 weeks along.

Seems like things are going slow but fast... if that makes sense.

I'm struggling a lot, but when i think back, it's nothing unusual for me and being pregnant that's why sadly i didn't look forward to being pregnant. Don't get me wrong, i want kids and i want this baby and i'm glad i got pregnant... it's just that the actual pregnancy part, wish i didn't have to go through it... it's not fun. Not fun when you pretty much feel sick 24/7 literally.... yet you HAVE to eat even tho it turns your stomach and you HAVE to clean and you can't neglect your children, you HAVE to feed them and play with them and let them lay on your stomach even tho it makes you want to throw up.

I've been threw this before, i know i can handle it and i know what great reward i will get in the end... it just feels like when you are going through it at the time, like you won't be able to handle it another week.

This too shall pass. This too shall pass!

But even tho this sounds so grim, i really am happy... excited another week has passed ^_^

While me and Anabel were talking this evening she said if the baby is a girl she would dress it in pink and bows and pretend it was a princess. Then i said 'What if it's a boy?'
'Then i would put brown stuff on him, just like grandpa!'
LOL

Then she started rattling off about birthdays 'Maybe i will make her this or this or this or this for her birthday cake' (couldn't understand it all) i caught things like 'April will love it cause i'll design it for her' and 'she is my friend'

I thought maybe she was talking about some little girl i hadn't met at church. I asked her 'Who?'
She said very clearly 'Umm April'
'April?'
'Yep April'
'Who is April?'
'Umm the little girl baby'
'What baby?'
'The little baby in your tummy'

April aye? Not sure i am a fan of that name... it is an 'A' name though. She is to cute! I will have to tell daddy about how Anabel named the baby!

I'm craving ice cream.... and cream cheese jalapeno poppers! LOL Not sure if i could eat them together... but i totally would take the poppers for dinner and the ice cream for dessert. Yesterday i only ate green beans for dinner o.0 This is weird for me... almost seems like i'm having the most aversions with the pregnancy then with the others, it's just weird (and sucks).

But i think instead i will try to make some meatballs and do them how me and Bob likes them in the cream cheese sauce stuffig. Hopefully it will be fast and easy to make them.

I thought i had energy to get up and clean the place..... and then i stood up >_< now i feel like i could pass out. But alas i have things to do.

I taught the girls how to play 'Simon Says' today. They loved it... it was so cute!

On a funny note, i have figured out mints and chewing gum help me a lot with nausea. Well Abby saw my gum in my mouth today (yes i was playing with it) and she freaked out.... ran crying. I tried to show her it wasn't scary, blew a bubble, well that didn't help one bit. Then i took it out of my mouth and let her touch it, seemed to help but once i put it back in my mouth she freaked again. Even at one point she would not look at my face without looking terrified. So weird! Sorta funny... but the gum is gone now and she is ok.
She did start to cry when she saw i was sucking on something again and i had to show it was just a mint, not gum, even let her lick it... she was ok after that. LOL Funny little girl!

So Bob told me last night that he is signing up for a family YMCA membership. We had talked about getting one. I would like to be able to go with Bob and work out for a bit... i can't do anything major but i could do the bike or treadmill. Might have to wait to start going till after football season but it still would be fun i think. I also heard that if you have a membership there is childcare for a while while you work. Might be something to look into.

Hope we end up using it!

So the last two day's I've had some interesting dreams.

Night before last i dreamed i woke up to teethe falling out of my mouth, my tongue was swollen huge along with my whole face. I was running around trying to get someone as worried as me but no seemed all that interested. Finally i tried calling the dentist but none of the numbers were working. When i woke up i had to check my teethe. LOL

Then last night i dreamed i had a small fish bowel with three fish in them... for some reason i decided to dump them. Then the next scene i was in the kitchen, two fish where caught in cob webs twitching. Then one fell on the floor and then i saw there was water spilt on the floor and it was trying to get to the water.... then there was another one in a cob web. I grabbed the fish bowel to scoop up the fish on the floor. All of a sudden the fish on the floor was getting bigger and bigger and sliding towards me and i was freaked out LOL. I managed the scoop it up with a fish net... in the end i got all of them and put water in the bowel. Then i noticed one of the fish kept jumping up above the surface of the water. It was purple and white and had like dog ears and whiskers... it was so icky looking LOL But i ended up putting netting over the top of the bowel to keep them from jumping out or letting the cat in... cause for some reason i thought we had a cat o.0

Then after that i had a short dream that something was stuck to my teethe and that i knew it was gum.... i was trying to get it from being caught on my teethe. I woke up with my fingers digging at my teethe for real... i had my retainer in so i think that was what was making have that dream... there really was something stuck to them lol

New things going on with me today:

Getting terrible tastes in my mouth... been breathing my teethe and sucking mints and chewing gum... haaa it's so icky! LOL
Also not sure if it's just hunger pains or heartburn o.0 but sharp pains in the... ehhh center of me? if that makes sense. Wondered if it was hunger pains just cause it's happened about the time i need to eat so who knows.

Meals are issues... dinner especailly is a hard one for me, which sucks cause that's the important one with hubby coming home from a long day at work.... sucks that i have a hard time figuring out what to cook and feed us.

Aside from that, i love to see my girls play. Today Anabel said she was traveling to the rain forest. She found one of Bob's football pamplets and told me it was a treasure map. She told sister to come on and told her that they needed to look for clues while watching out for strangers and tigers. They played this for awhile. I thought it was super cute :)

This afternoon Anabel asks "Are you ok momma?"
I said "I'm feeling kinda sick... sometimes when ladies get pregnant with a baby they can feel a little sick sometimes"
"The baby's sick?"
"Oh no no, baby is fine, just mommy feels a little sick but it's ok"
She said "Yeah, it's really hard work having a baby in your tummy, that's why you feel sick"
I never told her that... she's just smart :)

Yesterday was a pleasant bleak from all the morning sickness i've been having the last couple of days. I woke up feeling good and since it was so beautiful outside me and the girls ate breakfast in the backyard. We ended up spending almost 3 hours out there cause every time i asked the girls if they were ready to go in they would tell me no. Hehe

I figured out (i think) that i have to eat when ever my body demands and not to wait for meal times. It seems that it might help with the sickness.

Today i woke up feeling good to and decided to cook pan cakes for the girls. I need to eat what ever sounds good because things quickly change lately... sometimes things might only sound good for a short time.

Well while cooking i thought i was going to loose it. I got overwhelmingly hot (which is weird because since i have been pregnant i have been crazy cold and bundled up in blankets, jackets and/or sweaters all the time). I wasn't bundled up at the time but i was so hot, heat rushing to my head and i felt like i was going to up chuck. Managed to get the pancake off the pan that i was cooking and run to the bathroom. I was in there for several minutes feeling horrible but for some reason never puked. You know i don't think i have ever puked while pregnant.... sept for when i was in labor with Abby and about to push her out LOL. Although there was no shortage of feeling like i would puke with all the pregnancies.

But i got me some ice water and sat don for a bit and started feeling better... enough to cook again and eat. Thank God for that! Hopefully the rest of my day will go much better! I am hoping.

So excited to be having another little wonderful life! The journey will most likely be rough but the pay off is worth it! According to online calculations the due date should be about April 3rd 2013. Kinda hoping it comes it a different month or else two of my babies will be sharing a birthday month, BUT it will come when it is ready and that really is all i want... it to be ready when it comes!

Possible outfits #1:

Cute Girl Maternity / Plus Size 3/4 Length Sleeve Tee - White $9.86	Cool Kitten Prints with Gold Dust Bowknot Bat Sleeves Maternity Tee - Purple $11.22
Maternity Bell Bottom Zippy Pocket Long Denim Jeans - Black (M, L, XL) $16.66	Subtotal: $37.74 Shipping: $.34 flat rate Total: $38.08

 

Possible outfits #2:

Stripes Draped Halter Neck + Slim Fitted Tee 2 Pcs Set) $8.50	2 Tones Colour Block Bat Sleeves Band Hem Blouse $8.50
Maternity Slim Cut Denim Jeans (With Adjustable Waistband) - Black (S, M, L, XL) $16.66	Golden Rivets Long Bat Sleeves Band Hem Blouse (With Belt) $13.60
Subtotal: $47.26 Shipping: $.34 flat rate Total: $47.60	Up to 5 outfits.

 

Possible outfits #3:

Autumn New Pattern Hooded Stripe Sweater $34.65	Maternity Korean Style Lengthen Bubble Sleeve Sweater $32.90
Full Length Maternity Leggings - Brown $8.50	Subtotal: $76.05

 

Possible outfits #4:

Maternity Korea Style Fashion Stripe Plus Size Sweater $21.35	Striped Long Sleeves Band Hem Long Blouse - Dark Grey $14.96
Stylish 1-Button + Striped Maternity T-shirt (2 Pcs Set) $19.38	Maternity Stretchy Slim Cut Tapered Long Pants (With Adjustable Waistband) - Brown (S, M, L) $14.96
Subtotal: $70.65

 

Others i like:

Faked 2 Piece Maternity + Nursing Striped Long Sleeves Tee - Dark Blue $13.94	Maternity New Pattern Hooded Winter Thickened Coat $49.63
Maternity Full Sleeve Hooded Sports Casual Set $29.33	Autumn New Pattern Hooded Opening Sweater $32.90
Maternity Hooded Alphabet Sports Coat $17.15

 

They also have some really cute nursing cloths as well!