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Last night in my dreams…..

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Something had happened, no one quite knew what it was. In the night anything electronic stopped working, the electricity was down and most cars beside the old ones wouldn’t work. Everyone was declaring it had to be an EMP blast, it was the most logical answer.

People were acting like the world had ended. Many were breaking into homes and stores of any kind to gather things they thought they would need or things they thought would bring money. It had seemed like the normal rules people functioned by had been thrown out the door.

Word got passed around that everyone should head to a city about 120 miles away. Things got spread to quickly that no one knew who came up with this idea or for what reason. Maybe it was because everyone needed something to work towards to keep them busy but they all said that it was because they thought someone there might know what was going on. Everyone moved around as though there was impending danger behind them. As though something or someone was in our path to destroy our home, our town, even the entire would.

We decided to follow the masses general idea and travel to this city. We figured at the rate people were stealing that there would be nothing left if we did stay.

Our whole family was gathered together. I remember my sister crying, mostly because of the feeling of impending danger and that lost feeling you get when everything around you has changed so dramatically but she said “I can’t believe it takes the world falling apart to get the entire family together again!”. If our minds hadn’t be on our survival we might have realized how sadly true that statement was.

We found ourselves stopping at a convenience store. I guess you could say that the store had really became convenient since everyone was grabbing what they wanted and no one thought twice about paying. It had become a free for all. We were there, needing such stuff as water and toilet paper but we were afraid to just take what we needed, that would be stealing and we didn’t want our actions to become sinful. What else could we do then? We decided to take what we needed and leave some money on the counter, knowing that the likelihood of the next person just taking the money was very high, but that would become their own problem, not ours.

My foot had been bothering me for some time since the ‘event’ happened. I took off my shoe and saw that half of my foot had dried up and the skin was hard. I touched it and skin cracked, causing puss to oozing out. My stomach felt like i was going to throw up. Good thing was that my foot didn’t really hurt but this was an obvious problem. I didn’t want to worry my family about it so i stayed quite and looked for something to clean and bandage it. Hopefully that would do the trick. But I was very worried about it and it stayed nagging in the back of my mind.

A man approached us and pulled out a huge roll of cash. He said he wanted to buy our supplies off of us. We declined and he hinted that he needed our stuff one way or another and that he would see us again on I-75. I-75 was the highway that everyone was taking to get to the city. He left with a look of determination on his face that would send chills down anyone's back.

I turned to my family and asked if we were going to be traveling down the highway with everyone? We pulled out a map and searched for a new rout to take. My brother in-law pointed to the railway station and said that was were we should go. For a minute everyone thought he was insane until he explain. “Have you forgotten what happen?” He gave me a glare and explained that they have a very very old train there, one that powers on coal. That we could take that train and get there before everyone else. We all turned to looked at one another in silence. It wouldn’t hurt to at least try his idea out.

After a few hours we were on our way traveling down the railway. Life had become about survival. It was so bad that we couldn’t trust anyone but those in our family. Off in the distance, a mile or so away, we saw the mass of people trekking down the highway. As soon as they caught sight of the train they began to run towards it, waving there hands and yelling. I stood at the window, tears running down my face. I felt like such a terrible person. My family began to reassure one another that they had to do what they were doing. While i understood what they were saying I couldn’t help but think that we were doing a terrible thing. My brother said “They are going to get there one way or another, we are just getting there faster…. The safety of our children is the most important thing right now.” … ‘Yes but what about their children?’ I thought.

Soon the multitude was far behind us. I stayed at the window, holding my little girl. The clouds looked so depressing, as if they knew what was going on and were sad for us. They matched the feeling i had inside, dark and heavy. We would be to city soon, then what would be the plan?

We talked amongst ourselves and decided on a few options but soon our plans became useless. When we got there we found the town empty, stores didn’t looked touched as ours had been back home. What had happened here? We decided to set up camp. We would find the best house to set up base in, something that would be the best option to keep us safe from any intruders. We would stock up our supplies and even guns for protection. Then we would wait for the others to come and braise ourselves.

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Of course i added some details to make this more of a story but this is basically the dream i had. You ever wake up from a dream that obviously wasn’t finished and you have this feeling like you know the just of what was going to happen next? (maybe it’s just me, lol)

Anyways i felt like the infection of my foot had something to do with the ‘event’ and that it was going to play a big part in the story. How it was going to play a part I'm not sure… was it highly contagious and going to spread to others? Was it going to turn me into some sort of monster? The possibilities are endless. Either way i knew that it was something dreadful.

Also i had this feeling that Aliens would come into play in the dream.

  Wow i thought that was creepy, LOL. Looked like a neat alien?

• Cleaned kitchen
• Sorted logs/branches in the back yard (yes you read that right) from the tree that was cut down.
• Helped pull up cement
• Baked brownies
• Went to our Pastors house for a fun time
• Played a dice game called ‘Farkle’…. i lost, Bob won (dang him!)
• Came home…. ready to pass out!

• Drank a yummy homemade latte
• Ate biscuits and gravy for the first time with sausage gravy (awesome Renee!)
• Played a board game via the Xbox 360 (forgot the name). Won once, lost the other.
• Went to a antique store. Bought some awesome finds.
• Relaxed at home.

• Played ‘Horse’ (basketball game) with my family. Got third place.
• Played Risk
• Played Dance Central
• Played some sort of a fitness game also on the Xbox 360
• Became very sore…..
• Drank a homemade latte
• Watched ‘The Incredible Hulk’
• ….. passed out so sore

Last night i fed Abby some food before bed, gave her a teething strip and put her to bed across the hall from our room. I set the alarm to every 3 hours, would get up and feed her. She didn’t fuss at all, i was so surprised seeing as she has been waking up every hour for the last week or more. Before that she would wake up every 2 hours, so last night really i had the best sleep i probably have for several months. So i’m hoping this wasn’t a fluke thing and that she can keep it going! *crossing my fingers*

So this morning when Bob got up to get ready for work i went and fed Abby. Well i found that she had pee’d through her cloths she i ended up waking her up cause of the diaper and cloths change. So we ended up staying up with Daddy and helping him get ready for work.

Today is a parent-teacher day so he has to stay until 8pm at night, boo for that! But after today is Spring Break so i can’t complain to much.

Today has been BEAUTIFUL!!!! I have had all the curtains and windows open today, it has been wonderful! Things have gone really good today. I got tons of ironing done, laundry, straightened up the office/playroom. Now that Abby needs to be sleeping out of our bedroom so i can get some sleep we are going to put her crib in the play room. I already put the changing table in there so basically it’s like another kids room instead of an office. But i got it all straighten and that makes me happy!!! I got the kitchen cleaned up and the dinning room. The house is looking good. And it’s nice that i have been able to keep it that way. Still need to get to the bedroom and get that all nice. It will happen soon enough.

I’m just so excited about spring break! It will be so nice to have hubby around! YAY!

Abby’s little nose has been running like crazy and last night when she fussed for a feeding i noticed that she seemed to be sleeping way better in my arms, she could breath better. So i decided to take her into the living room and sleep in the recliner with her. She hasn’t slept good in at least week, if not longer. Last night i think she slept way better. I didn’t sleep good…. when i’m holding her my sleep is so light and i wake to any little movement from her. So i’m realllllllllllly tired, but oh well. Abby needs to get over this runny nose!

Then when Bob got up to get ready for work i put Abby back in the crib and had breakfast with Bob. Then when he left i laid back down on the couch until Anabel got up and came down stairs.

I’ve just been taking care of the girls and watching some Lost on netflix. I feel so out of it! I’ve decided to start giving Abby for food as well. I had been only giving her baby food once a day and the rest she nursed if she was hungry but i’m getting to that point where i can’t take it anymore, i have to get some sleep or i feel like i’m going to go crazy! >_< So a little more food it is, to see if that helps.

Today is going to be nicer outside so i might try and get out there today… means i need to take a shower and get real cloths on LOL Oh i feel pathetic!

Last night me and Bob decided to go to bed early because i was going to try and get up with Bob at 6:30am and spend some time with him. Well….. Abby decided to wake up a bazillion times last night. She woke up every hour and sometimes every 15 min. I was still going to try and get up with Bob but he told me to just stay in bed since i had such a bad night.

Abby is crazy! Last night she would be talking at the top on her lungs ‘Dadadadadadadada’ but when i would get up to check on her she would be asleep and doing it. She also would whine and fuss, all asleep. Most of the time she didn’t even want to eat, she just wanted me to hold her. I tried taking her to bed with me but that didn’t last long, nothing i could do would make her happy so she went back to bed. It was such a hard night! It felt like there wasn’t even a need for me to lay back in bed cause she would be waking me in 15min anyways.

So needless to say i only feel like laying around, which is what I'm doing. I’m hoping at nap time i will get a nap too. I really wish i knew what was making Abby wake up so much. I think it could be several things. She has a runny nose so it could be hard to breath plus she is teething…. and i wonder if i need to feed her more food during the day.

I remember with Anabel she was like this and we ended up giving her more food through the day. Plus it took a few night of letting her cry some before she would sleep almost through the whole night. Man I'm about at my breaking point. It’s so hard not to get sleep!

Bob’s parents had came down Saturday and stayed the night to go to church with us that morning. Me and Bob got up about 7am, took our showers and then started breakfast. We made waffles and bacon. It was good to eat before church because i didn’t have to deal with nausea or a headache, which was awesome!

After church Dad treated us along with the pastor and his family to dinner at a Mexican restaurant. By the time we got home it was nap time for both the girls so after we got them to sleep me and Bob had some alone time, that was really nice. We got a nap which was greatly needed! We didn’t wake up till 4pm and Anabel didn’t get up from her nap till about 5pm >_< So we rushed and got her dinner and everyone ready so we could head out to Life Group at 6pm.

Things just went really smoothly and relaxing, such a good time!  

I tell my girls i love them all the time but sometimes i get all chocked up and feel like I'm going to cry. It’s almost like i might not see them again and all my love is welling up when i look into their eyes. I love them so much, my heart is theirs!

Newest pic of Abigail. Love it!

Today i found why Abby has been to fussy and clingy. She has two upper teeth coming in. These will total 4 teeth. What a big girl! I can’t believe she is getting so big!

Also today she has been trying to pull up on things…. which means she has been falling and hitting her head a ton today. Poor girl! I followed her to stairs today and pulled up using the step into a standing position, then fell and boomed on her head. I felt her pain! All apart of the learning process right?

Almost the weekend! Sweet!

Yesterday i went to the first woman’s study our church started. It was nice. Fun to do something with the woman when I'm use to getting together with the dudes and doing things with them. Makes me feel all grown up, LOL It’s a really good book we are going over called ‘Crazy Love’. I think i will get a lot out of it!

Today i was searching for some images to put on my blog and i came across this image:

This is a throw back picture because it makes me think about when we had it up on our refrigerator growing up.

I want to try and establish good habits in my family. Some things that we already do is we always pray before meals especially with the kids, before nap time and night time. Before bed I have Anabel help me pick up toys in the girls room and we kneel and pray.

Other things we have been trying to establish is eating at the table. It’s a hard one though when it’s hard to turn off the TV.

I would like to get back into my hobbies, drawing, scrapbooking, sewing, crocheting, things like that.

I want to start doing certain things with Anabel everyday like having an art/craft time and a ‘make music’ time with her. Now that the weather is changing i would like to start getting the girls outside tons more. Anabel just adores it! She picks up everything she can find and walks around with her arms full of rocks, trying to stuff more and more into her arms. Then she makes piles with them.

I’ve been thinking a lot of ‘time spent’, TV is the biggest time sucker and what good is it really? I don’t know about you all but we spend so much time watching that stupid TV and it’s not shows that put great things into our lives. I’ve really been thinking about time and how we only have a short time on this world… do we really want to look back on our lives and realize we spent the most time of each of our days looking at a stupid boob tube? Is that the best thing we could be doing with our time?

If we calculate the amount of time spent on watching TV and think about what kind of other things could we be doing? I could get back into my creative hobbies. I could spend more time on my house. Have more actual ‘personal’ time with my family, talking instead of starring at a screen.

Now i may be making it sound like we watch TV 24/7 and i neglect my family, which is not the case…. i just think we along with the majority of the population spend to much time watching TV or being on the computers when there is so much more we could be doing with our lives.

I really want to change my habits. I want TV and computers to be a thing we do every once in awhile rather then the opposite.

It probably seems like a bigger deal because for over two weeks i had been sick and laying around, playing computer games or watching TV and i felt so useless. Now that i’m starting to feel better and i’m getting back more into doing other things… but still i think in my days i have the TV on to much. Mostly it’s for the noise but i think it would be better to train myself and girls not to have that noise on, maybe music or something, something that doesn’t have the potential in sucking me into watching it lol

I also think it will be easier to change my habits once Abby is older because i spend a lot of time holding her, rocking her, feeding her and stuff which usually ends up with me watching TV too. Haaa.

I’m really hoping and praying i can get our family habits changed. I want us to start doing more important things… and really things that will make us happier i believe. Surely doing other things then TV will make life more enjoyable, i just know it!

When Abby gets older i want to start a music time where the girls make up music and we sing and dance for awhile.. There is just so many things i’m looking forward to with my girls getting older. But i know i need to stop thinking about that and focus on the age they are now and what i can put into them now.